today i just feel shitty about myself today i just feel shitty about myself today i just feel shitty about myself today i just feel shitty about myself today i just feel shitty about myself today i just feel shitty about myself today i just feel shitty about myself today i just feel shitty about myself today i just feel shitty about myself
i tell myself i can't be in a relationship right now, which is true. i know i want one, but i know i can't handle one right now. and what's a goddamn relationship anyway, if you don't even LIKE the person?
still, i wanna look hot. i wanna feel confident. i want this.
http://www.loseit.com it's awesome! i don't have a smart phone, but apparently it works as an app on smart phones too! that's definitely how i've been really successful so far.
so i finally am following a plan that actually really works! oct. 18 SW: 154.6 nov. 8 CW: 147.8! it is 4 AM and i'm starving and can't sleep and it's probably just lost water weight. hah. but i feel really awesome and definitely can tell i've been losing. :) it's an awesome feeling! almost 7 pounds in about 3 weeks! i have a new schedule of when i want to lose and how much. oct. 31: 150 reached! nov. 17: 147 nov. 30: 144 dec. 17: 142 dec. 31: 140 jan. 17: 137 jan. 31: 135 feb. 14: 133.5 feb. 28: 132 mar. 17: 130 mar. 31: 128 apr. 17: 126 apr. 30: 124 may 17: 122 june 8: 120
